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Ok, finally someone is listening to me!

My tissue viability nurse is coming to see me tomorrow at the doctors, and the colorectal (sounds horrible I know but it's not QUITE that bad yet lol) wants to see me on friday, they both say they cannot believe that the operation hasn't been done yet!

I finally decided to be more assertive (well I was told that I need to be by a very nice person who tells it like it is), this is my life and i'm not spending it wasting every day waiting for the doctors to decide to do something, i'm nearly 23 and I feel like i've achieved nothing, and i'm worried that i'm not going to achieve anything if I don't get well soon. 

A YEAR on tuesday since my last operation.  I cannot believe it, it feels like 5 minutes... all that time wasted, and not my fault or in my control, it's scary! 

I don't quite know what I want to achieve yet, its as though I don't want to think about it because I don't want to be disappointed if I don't get better in time or at all.  I'll tell you what though, all I really want is health and happiness. 

And along those lines, whoever says money doesn't make you happy must have been stupidly rich, because my lack of money is making my life so difficult right now.  I literally do not have two pennies to rub together.  If I had money I could help my mum out, and go private and stop all this messing about that the NHS causes!

Ok end of this for today... feeling a lot more positive :)

And nobody is reading this haha, but it helps to rant :)

In Health